Prologue
Journal Entry: Wed May 14, 2008, 1:53 AM
How drunk sanity was when love struck
Promises made that were never kept
driven into what we foresaw,just never believed
promises we never kept
over again and again "over"
failed and dismissed
when love blinded the ever prevailing truth
I never could have stopped the heartache
prevented the inevitable
stealing happiness that was never my own
that never was meant to last
I should have called upon my better judgement
my knowledge of what was best
my heart begged, pleading....
"Dont walk down this road again
dont trust me, i will fail you..
dont intoxicate me
dont play that note
dont blindfold me with yet another memory
dont break me am already broken...."
Calling the time of death...
leaping into an ancient pit
old as the days of lore
I smile and laugh, ridiculing this nonsense
"Not a memory this time my heart
He will last
He will protect you
Oh, My poor heart, what do you know?"
Deaf, blind, sweet were the days he neared
the hours he was close;
infront of me, defying laws of reality
touching him, believing...
He was what defied and proved my heart wrong....
Drunk sanity, I open the door
I choose the nearing death of the heart
once proclaiming its life, now infront of me , motionless..
paralyzed
in amazement i stare...
slow decaying hours as they prey upon this heart
I stare still,in disbelief...
I stare still with innocence to a crime i am pleaded guilt
frozen becomes the hours when you witness a crime
when your the prime and only suspect
you desperately wish you could reverse time
to stop...to listen
but only guilt remains...
you stare as he departs; holding your heart
like a reaper in the dark shadows, masked with fear
Any final words , he says, victoriously
staring at my awe-struck face
I look back, silent
But he is far away, its gone...
what do I say ,in my defense?
I loved again and once for the last time
A deja vu , foreseen yet ever silenced
I apologize
I am sorry
its too late
He is gone...
- Mood:
Sadness - Listening to: shine on you crazy diamonds
- Reading: Animal Farm
- Watching: coworkers being silly
- Eating: Nutella
- Drinking: Coffee <3
Devious Comments
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bleeding through...
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I've learned that when life hands you lemons, a bird will always shit in your lemonade.
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Into every life a little rain must fall. I must be living for several people.
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Appreciate sex, don't destroy it.
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bleeding through...
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Carl T. Johnson
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Send this to everyone who rocks! Send back to me if you think I rock. If you get a dozen you are loved, and you rock!
missed you, finally back in Jedd!
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Insanity
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Zombie ate my headphones...
welcome 2 DA
and thanx for the Add ^^
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Join the new Gullivers Group --> [link]
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"Humans are nothing more than the Physical embodiment of Future memories"
-A.Edward Original
"Everytime I open the door on faith, people vomit stupidity"
-A.Edward Original.
Manager of ~100ThemeChallengers
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Zombie ate my headphones...
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Bledy czlowieka czynia go sympatycznym.
Failures of a man, make him out likeable.
MySpace
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your words are dead and useless now.
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I'm an opened book but "NO" one can read me...
Hope you are well xxxx
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Bledy czlowieka czynia go sympatycznym.
Failures of a man, make him out likeable.
MySpace
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your words are dead and useless now.
Spread the DA love around! (you can copy and paste this message on their userpage!)
RULES:
1- You can hug the person who hugged you!
2- You -MUST- hug 6 other people, at least!
3- You should hug them in public! Paste it on their user page!
4- Random hugs are perfectly okay! (and sweet)
5- You should most definitly get started hugging right away!
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I'm an opened book but "NO" one can read me...
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once lost then found...sad memories ill leave..no longer shall this heart of mine..justify the reason to believe..
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once lost then found...sad memories ill leave..no longer shall this heart of mine..justify the reason to believe..
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